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Justin stares at the ceiling for like 3 hours now since he woke up. Before he black out, he prayed what’s happening to him are just nightmare but once he gain his conscious back, he was broken all over again. The first thing he saw when he opens his eyes is Mark getting in to his clothes back. Justin was in so much pain that he could not even move his body. Mark left him in the guest room hurt, bloody and in pain all alone. Justin didn’t know what to do. He was planning to tell someone but Mark threatens not just his life but his mom, family and friends. He would never forgive himself if that happen. A tear roll down Justin’s cheek. He rolls his aching body so his face was stuff to the pillow. He screams in to the pillow as loud as he can since he lost his voice a bit when Mark put him through the worst pain ever.
He got up from his bed slowly, wincing slightly as his body ache. He was still naked. He bends down to the floor getting his clothes and drag himself to the bathroom. He stared at his reflection in the mirror. His eyes are red and puffy, he has a slap mark on his cheek, his hair was a mess, and his lips were a bit bruised. All in all, he looks horrible. Without thinking anymore, he went in in to the bathtub and on fill in the water. He sat down gently as his but still hurts and sore. He stared at the blood that was coming out of him. He let his tears fall without a care and finally sob his heart out. His body was shaking as he sobs and tries to breathe.
Once he calms down, he reaches the body wash and washes his body as he rubs them violently. He felt disgust with himself. He felt like trash. He wanted the feel of Mark touching him just disappear. Red mark start to form on Justin’s body when rub them. He didn’t care though. He just wants to feel clean again.
After about an hour on the shower cleaning him. Justin grabs the towel that was in the bathroom. He dries himself and wears his clothes back. He limp slowly back to the bathroom. He looks at the bed that was a mess. He has no choice but to clean them as Mark already demand him before he left. He sighs to himself and began to dispose all the evidence.
“Justin I’m home.” Justin was startle at his mom voice as the front door open and close.
Justin was sitting in front of the TV but he was not watching it, he was just staring at it. He didn’t reply his mom as he can’t seem to find his voice yet. Pattie furrow her eyebrows confuse because the house was quiet but the sound of TV tells her that Justin’s watching in the living room. Mark told her that Justin’s home already and that’s why she came back home as fast as she can. She hasn’t seen her son the whole week but she understands that he wants to spend time with his friends.
“Honey?” Pattie call again as she make her way to her son. Justin looks up to meet up with her mom loving eyes. Pattie gasp once she got closer to Justin.
“Oh my god! What happen to your face honey?” she coo as she took a seat beside Justin.
Justin tries to fake a smile and compose himself from bursting in to tears. He didn’t look at Pattie eyes as he knows that his mom can read him like a book just by looking in to his eyes. That’s how close they are.
“Umm .. I fell in the bathroom.. It was nothing mom.” He spoke softly after hours of being quiet.
“Are you sure about that?” Pattie asks not believing that his son could be that clumsy.
He nodded his head slowly. “Yeah mom. Don’t worry about it alright.” He tries to reassure his mom.
“Okay then baby. I’ll just the aid kid and we clean that up alright.” Pattie said as she got up from her seat and went to get the aid kit. Justin says a silent ‘okay’ as he can’t find the strength to talk any louder.
Pattie clean her son’s little cuts gently. “Justin, you won’t lie to me if something happen won’t you?” she asks softly as she cleans his cuts.
Somehow Pattie doubts with Justin’s excuse of falling in the bathroom. And Justin seems so quiet than he should be. Usually if he gets a cut or even small injury, he would freak out about it and would literally call his mom just to tell her that. Pattie never gets annoyed or anything, she felt grateful because Justin always turn to her when he’s sad or hurt even if it’s the smallest thing. She rather hear Justin’s whine than keeping secret from her.
“Of course I won’t mom. Why would you ask that?” Justin try to speak normal as he can.
“Nothing. I just didn’t want you to feel like you can’t come to me anymore if you’re dealing with something Justin. I maybe have a boyfriend now but you will always be my main priority.” She answer him caressing his son cheek lovingly. Justin lean in to his mom touch as he finally put on a real smile. No matter what, his mom always knows how to make him feel better.
“I know mom. I love you so much.” He said trying not to choke out. Pattie pull his son in to a hug and kiss his forehead.
“I love you too baby.”
“Hey Justin.” Kenny cheer as he took a seat beside the young boy. They’re on their way back to Justin’s house as they have a mini show just around Canada. Justin might be on a break but he still work at the same time.
Justin look at Kenny beside him and smile. Fake smile of course. Kenny frown.
“Are you okay buddy?” he ask concern. He knows Justin enough just to know when he’s smile for real or forcing a smile. Justin is like a family to him. In fact, he admit Justin is his nephew.
“I’m fine Kenny, don’t worry about it.” Justin try to assure Kenny.
“Why do you look so helpless then?” Kenny question back.
“I’m just a bit tired from the show just now. That’s all.” He try to reason. Kenny frown again. He didn’t believe one bit of that excuse. Justin is always excited and happy especially when he get to perform but today he looks different. He looks distance somehow.
But Kenny decided to just drop the question. He doesn’t want to force Justin if he didn’t feel like talking about it.
“Okay buddy. But if you do need anything, you know I’m always here right?” Kenny said as he wrap his right arm around Justin. Justin flinch at the touch making Kenny pulled backed his arm and look at the young boy weirdly. Justin was never this sensitive before.
“Yeah. Thanks Kenny. Umm .. I got to go to the toilet yeah.” He said nervously as he walk fast to the toilet. He close the toilet door and lean his forehead on the door as he took a deep breath. He couldn’t help but to shed a few tears. He turn his bosy as he slide down the down and sit on the toilet floor.
He think:
‘Why is this happening to me?’
‘What did I do wrong to deserve all this?’
‘I just want it to stop’
Without Justin realize it, he’s full on crying now as Mark’s face appears in front of him. The memories of what happen 2 days a go was playing in his mind. It never stops playing though. he gets nightmare now. Every night he would woke up screaming and crying but of course he had to lie to his mom saying he’s just having nightmare, nothing to worry about. He haven’t seen Mark for these 2 days as his mom said he’s on business trip. He was thankful for that.
“Justin are you okay in there?” Alfredo yell knocking on the toilet door. Justin jump a bit.
“Yea..Yeah I’m fine. Just a minute.” He manage to said back as he wipes his tears and open the door revealing one of his best friend, Fredo looking at him worried.
“Sorry. I was not feeling well.” Justin said not looking at Fredo’s eyes.
“Ouh, we’re almost reaching your home, you can get some rest then.” Fredo said to Justin. He just nod and make his way to sit at the corner of the bus. Fredo furrow eyebrows.
‘That’s weird, he’s so quiet today’ he thought.
“Okay we’re here” the bus driver yell as he reach Justin’s house. Justin got up from his seat and walk straight out the bus, thanking the bus driver and saying bye’s to his crew.
He walk slowly to his house and open the door as he walk in and close the door softly. He breath in the accent of the house. It always makes him feel warm no matter what.
“Honey your back.” Pattie beamed as she make her way to her son and embrace him with a hug. Justin hug his mother back.
“How was the show sweetie?” she ask when they pull away. “It was awesome as always.” He tried to sound cheerful.
“That’s really great baby. Now, come on. Dinner’s ready.” Pattie said motioning Justin to the kitchen. Justin grin at his mother. He is terribly hungry. He walk to the dining room but stop on his tracks when he saw the one person that he wish could just disappear.
Mark look up to Justin and smirk at him. He wink at the boy making Justin cringe.
“What are you waiting for honey? Take a seat.” Pattie rush her son as she settle down the food on the table. Justin walk slowly taking a seat opposite Mark. He’s not going to seat anywhere near Mark that’s what he thought.
They say a prayer and begin to eat. Justin fiddle his food with his fork. He doesn’t feel hungry anymore. Not when his rapist is sitting in front of him and practically flirting with his mom. He just wants to get up to his room and shut his eyes.
“Justin, what’s wrong?” Pattie ask concern as her son didn’t touch his food yet.
Justin look up to his mom “Umm .. Nothing mom, just a little tired from the show today, that is all.” He lied.
Pattie nod understanding. “Honey, I was thinking of staying the night tonight, would that be a problem?” mark suddenly speak up making Justin shots his head to look at the old man.
“Of course that would not be a problem Mark. This is basically your house too, you can stay whenever you want. Aint that right Justin?” Pattie said smiling.
“Umm .. Yeah.” Justin answer her with a fake smile. From corner of his eyes he could see Mark smirking at him but he didn’t want to look at him.
Justin stared at the ceiling thinking. He’s been doing that since he went up to his room. He lay down on his comfortable bed and just stare at nothing. He is so exhausted and he didn’t even know why. He usually don’t get this tired for a small shows. Even when he’s on tour, he would still be energetic after performing the whole week. He sighs for who knows how many times today. He roll over and grab his thick blanket around him somehow making him feel safe and nuzzle in to the pillow as he slowly drift off to sleep.
“Get up!” Someone yell whisper at Justin’s left ear. He open his eyes slowly to be met with a pair of evil eyes that is full of lust. Justin wanted to scream at that moment but Mark quickly slap his hand to Justin’s mouth.
“Don’t you dare make a sound or I’ll shoot your mother!” Mark warn as he hold a gun in front of Justin. Justin eyes widen as he shook in fear.
Mark smile evilly. “Now move over!” he demand. Justin scoot away quickly scared. Mark slip in under Justin’s blanket. “Now turn around” he whisper to the Justin’s ears. Justin did as he told.
“Good boy.” Mark said proudly. Mark pull down Justin boxer with one of his hand making Justin move away but Marks other hand held Justin’s neck making him trap. Mark then start to stroke Justin under the blanket making the boy whimper. Mark cover the boy’s mouth to make sure he doesn’t make a sound. He moaned lowly as he started to grind on Justin back. Justin felt sick just hearing that.
Then once Mark done stroking Justin, he started to pull out his dick from his boxer. “Now, I’m going in, don’t you dare scream or I swear I’ll shoot you!” he warn Justin. Justin’s began to panic.
Before he could protest. Mark enters him roughly making Justin scream in pain but no one can hear his scream as Mark never let go of his hand from Justin’s mouth. Only muffle of his scream could be heard.
“Fuck, this feels good. Are you enjoying it baby. I know you do.” Mark moaned at Justin’s ear as Justin were hoping more than anything for this to stop. It keeps going on for about half an hour. Justin body start to grow tired and he becomes numb all of sudden. Once Mark see that Justin didn’t make a sound anymore, he uncover his hand from the weak boy’s mouth. He trust in and out without a care. He didn’t feel bad quiet bit as Justin just lay there helplessly. He released himself inside of Justin and finally took it out of him.
He pulls Justin boxer up and kiss his cheek sloppily. “Good job baby. Just how I like it.” He said to the young boy. Justin didn’t say a word, he didn’t even move his body. He was in pain but there’s nothing he could do.
“We’ll do this again okay.” Mark said as he get up from the bed and wear his boxers properly. He smirked as he looked at the broken boy then he walk out of the room closing the door like nothing happen.
Justin lay there not moving until he then fell asleep with tears streaming down his beautiful brown eyes.
Pattie frown as she feels her son’s forehead. He’s burning up. Justin peel his eyes open slowly as he groan. He feel so sick and his head hurts so much.
“Oh baby, just relax okay baby. You’re sick.” Pattie coo rubbing her sons arm.
“Here, take this medicine. It should calm down the fever a bit.” Pattie said as she hand the two pills to his son. Justin get up slowly as he feels pain all over his body. He took the water from his mom’s hand and the 2 pills as he swallow it.
“Thanks mom.” Justin croak. Pattie smile kissing his sweaty forehead.
“You can’t go anywhere today alright? Ryan and Chaz will come over soon and I have work with Scooter for awhile. I don’t want to leave you” Pattie said guiltily.
“It’s okay mom. I’m just having fever, I’ll be fine.” Justin assure even though he really needs his mom now but he’s not going to make his mom suspicious on anything. With what Mark warn him yesterday, the old guy wasn’t joking when he said he will hurt her.
“Okay baby. Feel better alright. I make you Chicken soup over there. Eat it alright.” Pattie point at the food and water she has prepare at the table on Justin’s bedside.
“Thanks mom.” He croak again.
Just then Ryan and Chaz burst in his room making the them snap their head to the door.
“Uhh sorry. I wanted to ring the bell but Chaz here decided barging in would be a better idea somehow.” Ryan apologize as he nudge Chaz shoulder. Chaz just smile sheepishly.
Pattie chuckle at the boys. “It’s alright boys, this is your home too.” She said.
“Alright then, I have to go. Take care of my baby alright guys?” Pattie warn playfully making Justin whine.
“We’ll make sure of that mam.” They say in unison.
Justin laugh looking at his loves ones. He would never forgive himself if one of them got hurt. He sighs.
“What’s wrong Jay?” Chaz ask as he sat near Justin. Justin look up to his best friend. “Nothing, I just hate being sick.” He half lied.
“Who doesn’t man?” Ryan said.
“I love being sick.” Chaz answer happily making the other two boys look at him weirdly.
“What? If I’m sick my mom will be extra nice to me and so as everybody around me.” he answer.
“I guess you have a point there.” Ryan said shrugging.
Justin look at his friends amuse, he didn’t feel like saying anything. Suddenly he felt so disgusting. He remember what Mark did to him last night and he didn’t wash himself yet.
“Guys?” he croak again. It seems he’s about to lose his voice. “What’s wrong buddy?” Ryan ask.
“I want to shower, can you like help me with filling the bathtub with warm water?” he ask.
“Sure dude.” Chaz said as he walk to the bathroom that attached to Justin’s room.
Justin ate his soup while waiting for Chaz to prepare the water. He talk random stuff with Ryan at the same time.
“Okay your bath is ready.” Chaz said as he walk out from the bathroom.
“Thanks.” Justin said softly and he remove the blanket from him and stood up from his bed. As he was about to walk, he hold his head.
Ryan and Chaz ran to his side making sure their best friend didn’t fall to the ground.
“You okay Justin?” They ask. Justin nod still trying to walk but stumble a bit making Ryan held his wrist.
“Justin, how about you get some sleep first, you can take a shower when you wake up later.” Ryan suggest. He knows Justin will collapse anytime soon if he kept walking to the bathroom. Justin shook his head .
“No! I need shower now.” Justin said weakly and try to walk again. But Chaz stop him now.
“Come on Jay, you will collapse in the bathroom if you go now. Just take a nap first.” Chaz said concern.
Justin’s eyes start to water. He wants to shower now no matter what. He felt dirty and he’s not going to sleep again with Mark’s cement on him. He can still feel it inside of him and that just makes him feel sick.
“Please. I need it now.” Justin plead to his friends with tears streaming down his face. He didn’t care if he’s crying in front of them, he just want to clean himself. Ryan and Chaz look at him in shock. They are more worried now that Justin practically beg for a shower.
Chaz wrap his left arm around Justin trying to calm him down. “Okay, we’ll let you take a shower but you can’t close the door alright, so we could hear if anything happen.” Chaz said to Justin.
“Okay.” Justin said quietly nodding his head. Chaz smile and lead him to the bathroom. Ryan went to Justin closet taking out his jumper and sweats something to warm him. Ryan couldn’t help but curious. Why is his bubbly friend look so broken? He knows that Justin is sick but never break down like this before. Justin never show people when he’s sick. But today, he was crying just to take shower. Ryan’s been suspicious with the way Justin been acting these days but he thought that he was just tired or miss touring.
“What’s going on with you Justin?” Ryan whisper to himself.
Honestly, I feel like crying writing this chapter.
Poor Justin.
I hope you guys love it. Tried my best to make it awesome.
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