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“Josh, don’t.” I put my hand to his chest and pushed him back a bit. He was going in for another kiss, just as he’d done all week.
“Why not?” He pouted and went to kiss me again. This time I didn’t resist so much and let him kiss me instead. Of course I kissed him back but he was just avoiding things now. I pulled back for good, finally, and talked to him again.
“Why do you keep kissing me?” I blurted out. That’d been on my mind each time he’d done so and I wanted an answer. I needed an answer.
“Don’t act like you don’t like it.” He sassily shot back with a smirk. I shook my head. I wasn’t delaying again.
“Of course I like it but that’s not what I asked. You can’t just be sad then see I care when I ask you about what happened and decide you’re going to kiss me to avoid it all.” I explained. “I don’t like it. I feel like your little distraction. And what does that even make us? Are we still friends or is this the beginning of one of those fuck buddies type things? I liked our friendship and, yeah, I admit I was feeling something for you but I didn’t expect things to go like thi-” I was cut off from my rant by him grabbing my hips and forcefully pulling me towards him, smashing our lips together with just as much passion. I practically melted into the kiss and loved it so much but I knew I couldn’t let him keep doing this without telling me why.
“Tyler, stop talking.” Josh chuckled but his smiled was faded. He looked deeply in thought. Maybe even a little sad. “Listen, I like you and I like kissing you. I understand if you don’t want to do anything with me though.”
“It’s not that.” I reached out to him but he pulled back a bit.
“No, I understand, don’t worry. I’ll just,” He grabbed his jacket. “See you tomorrow maybe.” He left.
I was left standing in the middle of my room in shock and disappointment. He should have let me explain. Or at least just let me talk so he could explain his side. I didn’t mean to mess things up like this but I really had to ask. There’s no point in doing this stuff and not knowing about what’s happening.
I didn’t want things to be weird. Asking would be better than just going along with it. I just hoped he didn’t hate me.
***
okay. I was trying to get this up like yesterday but oh well.
Misadventures is pretty good. I think my favorite songs are Floral & Fading and Circles but I bought the actual CD today for a good 10 bucks.
lates *
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