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my dear Blood brothers, I just wanna share with you my journey as a PLHIV, hope it will inspire you..
December 2014 my mom got sick and was hospitalized…. that time, I was working in a call center company… I filed a leave for a month to look after my mom in the hospital… until she died January 29 2015…after my mom died I went back to work…but that time, I was already feeling weak and easily gets tired. I started to lose my motivation for work… I just thought it’s because I was mourning for my mom’s death… then napapansin ko na madalas ako magka singaw at lagi masakit lalamunan, laging may ubot sipon… laging absent sa work…. so naisip ko na hindi na healthy sa call center kaya lumipat ako ng trabaho sa Mandaluyong. It was a dayshift work … and dun kami sa Pasig tumira ng ex partner ko… hanggang sa tuloy tuloy na humina ang katawan ko… I was obviously loosing much weight and a lot of people were noticing it already…tapos madali akong hingalin… hanggang sa nilalagnat na ko sa gabi… then I decided na magpacheck up sa doctor sa pasay… and I became positive from pneumonia… I was confined… at naging malala yung pneumonia ko… to the point na i was almost dying…. the doctor was asking my sister to sign a waiver for them to put a respirator since my lungs couldn’t support itself anymore…. and then himala nalang na naka survive ako sa pneumonia… sabi ng doctor hindi daw normal sa edad ko ang magka pneumonia… and they asked me to take the hiv screening… so that’s what i did…lo and behold… REACTIVE ako… and my CD4 count that time from a normal of 1000 went drastically down to 8….. I felt so devastated that time..i was thinking what will happen to me… am I going to die? If so, I wanted to end it already so that my agony won’t prolong anymore..then miraculously my body survived from pneumonia..but while I was recovering, i developed another infection called oral candidiasys.. (amag) sa bibig… na naging cause ng pagkawala ko ng gana sa pagkain which worsen my situation… then as my body goes weaker and weaker… there were a lot of infections entered my body… I acquired the so called varicella virus… yung nagiging dahilan kung bakit nagkakabulutong ang isang tao….since critical na ang CD4 ko which is our immune system… wala na kong panlaban sa varicella virus… and the worst part…. they managed to go into my brain… at nabaliw ako for how many days… to the point na nananakit na daw ako at di makausap ng maayos… kaya they decided to tie me up sa hospital bed… series of tests mri and ct scan were given,, since ang varicella ay self limiting virus… meaning kusang nawawala in time… namanage ng katawan ko na maka survive… pero di pa nagtatapos ang kalbaryo… dumating naman si Tuberculosis…. ayun nahirapan ako lalo.. and that contributed to the weakening of my body…..and then I started taking ARV treatment last feb… after two months of ARV… my pneumonia came back… so I was hospitalized several times… akala ko di na ko mabubuhay… ayun… fortunately naka ligtas ako sa tiyak na kamatayan… and patuloy kong iniinom yung gamot ko… now I am already cleared sa Tuberculosis… cleared narin ang pneumonia… and I’m now on my 8th month sa pag inom ng arv…. so far so good… my CD4 went up from 8 now to 221…. Little by little I’m gaining weight and strength… dati naka wheel chair lang ako.. Incapable of walking… now I can even live on my own… may sarili na kong business… and still alive and fighting…
Why am I telling my story? I just wanted everybody to know how hard it is if we will not be able to know our status… if we let HIV destroy our body… it will become very damaging in your life… you might lose your job, the life you used to live, there will be obvious changes on your physical appearance, you won’t be able to live the life you use to live… So it should be a wake up call for everyone to better know your status as soon as possible. Don’t let HIV destroy your life. Be cautious, Be safe, Be responsible.
For my fellow Blood brothers who are experiencing the same fate as mine, do not ever lose hope, HIV is not a death sentence, it is just a wake up call for us to take much care of ourselves specially our health. Remember, our identity as a human person is not being defined on what medical condition we have… after all it is just “HIV” a medical condition just like any other illnesses. You can still live as a normal, healthy and productive person. For all my blood brothers, always keep in mind that we are much stronger and resilient than any other person who doesn’t have this condition like ours. WE ARE THE BRAVEST PERSON ever lived because we’ve been fighting this our entire lives. Those people who are judging us don’t know us and they don’t have any idea of what we are going through. So just let them judge you. Never think that this is a punishment from God, because God is a God of love and mercy. He never punishes people. Why do we experience this? It is just because, it is the result of our decisions in life. My dear blood brothers,,,Keep the Faith, keep the FIGHT! Enjoy life with prudence! Cheers!!!!
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