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When I wake up, Vic’s not asleep next to me anymore which saddens me a little but then again, Vic’s always an early riser. I get out of bed with a smile on my face. I go down to the bathroom and shower then I come out and go downstairs where I can smell breakfast being cooked.
As I’m walking down the stairs, I begin to get a little paranoid. What if Vic has changed his mind overnight? I swallow my doubt and just go into the kitchen. Vic’s sitting at his normal chair eating bacon and eggs and Mama and Papa are sipping coffee while talking to each other.
“Morning.” I smile as I sit down in the chair next to Vic’s.
“Morning Kiddo.” Papa says. “How did you sleep?”
I feel Vic grab my hand from under the table making my stomach flip.
“Well.” I answer simply.
“That’s good. You seem a lot happier this morning, are you feeling better?” Papa asks and I nod. “Good good, the beach must have done you good.”
I blush thinking about what happened at the beach and I nod.
“What would you like for breakfast Kell?” Mama asks. “There’s bacon and eggs there or would you like me to make you something else?”
“Bacon and eggs please.” I smile and she nods.
Papa and Mama then get up and leave the room, going into the kitchen to get me breakfast. I turn my head toward Vic and he immediately grabs the back of my neck and kisses me softly. I kiss back, feeling all my previous worries float away. When Vic pulls away he places another kiss on my nose.
“I’ve been wanting to do that all morning.” He breathes and I blush. “So now that you’ve slept on it, do you still want to be my boyfriend?” Vic asks as he starts eating again.
He eats with one hand and holds my hand with the other.
“Yep, still do.” I grin.
“Good.” He grins back.
He kisses my cheek one last time before Mama and Papa renter the room. He drops my hand as Papa places a plate in front of me. I thank Mama and Papa before I start eating. When they sit back down across from us, Vic links his fingers back with mine. I have to stop a smile from falling onto my face. I can’t help the blush.
“Honey, when do you think you’ll be okay to go back to school?” Mama asks in a soft comforting voice.
I feel Vic give my hand a little squeeze making me internally smile.
“Monday should be fine.” I murmur knowing that Mama, Papa and Vic would all want me at school.
“Are you sure? It’s fine if you’re not ready. We don’t want to freak you out or anything. I feel like we rushed you off to school before you were ready.” She explains.
“No it’s okay. I can handle it.” I smile, even though I’m not entirely sure but I’ll give it a go and try my best.
“Good good. I’m proud of you Kell. I’m glad that you’re coming out of your shell.” Papa grins.
“Thank you for giving me the, um, op-opportunity to do all these things.” I murmur, becoming slightly frustrated with myself as I have trouble pronouncing the word.
“You’re welcome Kiddo. We’re just giving you the opportunities you’re entitled to.” He explains.
We all finish our breakfast and then Mama and Papa announce that they’re going to see family who live in another city so they’re going to be gone all day.
They get ready to leave and I say goodbye, giving them both big hugs. I’m going to miss them. I always do when I don’t see them for a few hours.
Before they leave, Vic even says ‘bye’ with a big bright smile on his face. I swear I see happy tears in Mama’s eyes as she leaves.
When they’re gone, Vic grabs my hand and leads me into the living room. He sits on the sofa and pulls me into his lap. I giggle and wrap my arms around his neck. He grins as he leans in and kisses me. I don’t think I’ve seen him smile this much. Could this be because of me?
“You’re really cute.” He smiles and I feel my face heat up.
“Thank you.” I murmur biting my lip.
“You’re welcome.” He says, pressing his lips to my nose.
I giggle and push my face into his neck. I inconspicuously breathe in his scent. He always smells so nice.
“We should watch a movie.” He suggests and I nod excitingly. “What’s you’re favourite movie?”
“Happy Feet.” I grin.
Vic looks contemplative for a minute.
“You know Happy Feet 2 is in theatres at the moment. Do you want to go to the movies?” He asks and my eyes widen.
“Really? You’re going to take me to the movies?” I ask hopefully and more excitedly than ever.
“Yeah, if you want.” Vic shrugs. “It can be like a little date.”
My eyes light up even more if possible.
“Come on. Lets go.” Vic smiles as he takes my hand.
He checks his pocket for his wallet, confirming it’s in there then we leave the house.
“Have you been to the movies before?” He asks sounding a little hesitant.
I bite my lip and shake my head.
He frowns and nods.
“Your parents were horrible.” He mutters.
“I know.” I mumble. “Actually, I don’t know. I thought everything was normal. It’s still confusing to think that what they were doing wasn’t normal. I’ve gone my entire life putting up with it because I thought it was fine.”
Vic sighs softly and kisses my cheek.
“I don’t understand how they could treat you so horribly. You’re the kindest, sweetest person I know. How could anyone hate you?” Vic mutters.
“Why did you hate me when we first met?” I ask curiously.
The question obviously makes Vic uncomfortable. He glances at me and I notice a deep regret in his eyes.
“I never hated you, not for a second. I tried to convince myself that I hated you and that’s why I treated you so badly but I could never actually hate you. I like you way too much.” Vic explains.
“But why did you try to convince yourself that you hated me?” I ask confused.
“Because I thought that if I convinced myself that I hated you then I would and these feelings would go away.” Vic shrugs.
“But why?” I mumble even more confused.
Vic sighs once again, looking perplexed.
“I don’t like the fact that I like guys, Kellin.” He whispers, loud enough for me to hear.
“Why not?” I ask, feeling like I’m getting annoying but every time he gives me an answer, it raises more questions.
“Being gay is just not something that I like about myself. It’s just not seen in a great light these days by society. It’s not that I think it’s wrong, because it isn’t, I just know that other people don’t see that. I hate the negativity.” He explains but that only makes me feel insecure.
“Should I not like being gay?” I squeak out and Vic comes to a sudden halt before he grabs my shoulders turning me towards him.
“Of course not. Never ever be ashamed of who you are Kells. You’re absolutely perfect the way you are. Be proud of who you are.”
The seriousness in his eyes and tone is intense but it only adds meaning to his words. I nod, knowing that I’m going to take his advice.
He drops his hands from my shoulders and we begin walking again.
“You should be proud of who you are too. I think you’re perfect too.” I shrug.
He gives me a little smile.
“It’s different Kells.” He murmurs.
“In what way?” I ask confused.
“It just is.” He concludes and I want to argue with him but I decide to drop the subject.
Although, I don’t see how it’s different. If I shouldn’t be ashamed of myself then why should he?
Vic slides his arm around my waist distracting me from my thoughts and we walk the rest of the way in silence.
When we get to the movie theatre, Vic buys the tickets along with popcorn and drinks for us, all the while I look around at everything. I’ve never been to a movie theatre before and it’s wonderful. The entire place smells like buttery popcorn.
“You’re like a child.” Vic comments looking at me amused as he hands me my drink and puts his wallet away. I hope he didn’t pay too much. Everyone’s spending their money on me and it’s unnecessary, although I’m grateful.
“What do you mean?” I ask confused.
“Just the way you look at everything, like you’ve never seen any of it before. It’s like you’re a small child experiencing everything for the first time.”
“I guess I kind of am.” I reply.
“I guess so.” He smiles. “It’s really cute though.”
I can’t help but to blush at his comment.
He leads me into a room with many chairs and a giant screen. I can’t seem to get the smile off of my face. This is so great. I’ve never been on a date before. Ive never even thought about going on a date. I never thought I’d have a boyfriend or a life.
Vic leads me to a seat in the middle of the theatre and we sit down. I rest my head against him as he wraps his arm around my shoulder. He kisses my cheek making my face heat up.
“Why do you blush every time I kiss you?” Vic asks with a chuckle.
“I don’t know. I’ve never been treated like this before. You make me feel special.” I whisper.
“You are special.” He murmurs.
I blush some more and he chuckles.
“If you get any more cuter, I might implode.” He grins only make me blush harder.
“Stop.” I whine, covering my face.
No doubt my cheeks are flaming red. Ugh this is embarrassing.
“Never.”
He kisses my temple and I remove my face from my hands. I kiss his cheek and his cheeks tint a little pink.
“Now you’re blushing.” I point out.
“I blame you.” He mumbles seeming embarrassed and maybe a little annoyed.
I frown and shift uncomfortably in my seat.
“Oh, I’m sorry.” I whisper and Vic gives me a confused and worried look.
“Sweetheart, I was joking.” He murmurs.
“Oh.” I breathe, feeling relieved. I thought he was mad at me or something.
“Kell, I know you haven’t had much experience with kindness but people aren’t going to get mad at you unless you do something wrong. And as long as I’ve known you, you haven’t done anything wrong. You have nothing to be sorry about or to feel bad about. Okay?” Vic explains and I nod.
I wrap my arms around him, hugging him tightly.
“Thank you.” I whisper.
He kisses my head and pushes some hair out of my face.
I smile widely at him, feeling my heart expand. He smiles back and gently kisses my nose.
No one has ever been this affectionate towards me and I really like it.
I hear the movie start, so I relax against Vic and turn my attention to the screen. He runs his fingers along my arm sending shivers through me but at the same time calming me.
If you asked me a few months ago if I saw myself having a boyfriend, a loving family and just being generally happy, I would have thought you were insane. But I do and it all seems so surreal. Like any minute I’m going to wake up in the cold basement with my father screaming at me about how much I ruined his life.
But this is real. This is all real and I feel like the luckiest person in the world.
The movie seems to fly by and I feel kind of sad when it finishes. This means that we have to go home. Mama and Papa are probably already home so Vic and I will won’t be able to kiss and stuff unless we’re alone.
We leave the theatre and we begin walking home hand-in-hand.
“Did you like the movie?” Vic asks and I nod.
“Yeah I did. It wasn’t as good as the first one though.” I explain.
“Yeah the sequels never are.” Vic smiles.
I get a little tingling feeling when I see his smile. I don’t know what it is but I like it.
“Vic, you smile a lot more.” I point out and Vic glances at me.
“Do I?” He asks and I nod. “Could it be because I’m happy?” He chuckles.
“I like it when you’re happy. I don’t like it when you’re sad. It makes me sad.” I explain and Vic smiles.
“That means that you care about me.” He says and I nod.
“I do. I never want to see you hurting.” I sigh.
“As long as your around, I’ll be okay.” He murmurs and a warm feeling enters my chest.
We stop outside of the house and Vic pulls me into a kiss. If my chest gets any warmer then my heart might melt. Vic pulls away and I look up into his adoring eyes.
“Thank you for taking me out.” I whisper.
“Anytime. I enjoy doing things with you.” He beams.
We stare at each other for a while. Honestly, I never want to go inside. I don’t want to have to pretend that Vic and I aren’t dating but I have to go in eventually. Besides, I’ve missed Mama and Papa.
“Come on.” Vic sighs and I follow him into the house.
When we enter the house, we hear chattering from the living room so we go into there. I spot a familiar person on the sofa and she looks up when we enter. My jaw drops and an excited feeling enters my stomach. Honestly, I never thought I’d see her again.
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