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8 ๐ฐ๐๐๐ค๐ฌ ๐ฅ๐๐ญ๐๐ซ
๐๐๐ง๐ ๐๐๐ซ๐ญ๐๐ซ~๐๐๐ง๐
๐๐๐ซ๐๐ก 21|1:19 ๐ฉ๐ฆ
๐๐จ๐ฎ๐ฌ๐ญ๐จ๐ง, ๐๐๐ฑ๐๐ฌ
๐๐ข๐๐ง๐ง๐ ๐ข๐ฌ 38 ๐ฐ๐๐๐ค๐ฌ
“Damn ima kinda miss pregnancy”
“I thought you hated it”
“I did but now that it comes closer to the end..I just think about how ima miss it”
“But I’m tired of carrying this heavy ass child anyways”
“Your stomach heavy?”
“Yes it’s super heavy”
“Lemme see”
“Hol up we gon do that thing on tiktok where they hold the lady belly up”
“I guess”
Hell ion know.
I got behind her and put my hands under her bump.
Thing big as fuck.
I lifted it up and it was actually heavy.
And she look so relieved.
I’m glad I’m not a woman.
“You ready for me to let go”
“Yeah you can let go”
I let go and she sat down.
“That shit is heavy”
“Yeah”
“You ready to go to the class”
“Kane I’m not going. I’m 9 months pregnant and can barely move…I’m not going to that damn class again”
Lazy ass.
“Didn’t the doctor say it’ll help with labor and stuff”
“Okay but I don’t wanna go”
“Okay we won’t go then”
“Thank you” She said getting up to go to the kitchen.
She got ice cream and Cheez-its.
It really don’t even phase me no more. She been doing this for so long.
We basically just chilled the rest of the day.
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3 ๐ฐ๐๐๐ค๐ฌ ๐ฅ๐๐ญ๐๐ซ
๐๐ข๐๐ง๐ง๐ ๐๐๐ฅ๐ฅ๐ฒ~๐๐ข๐
๐๐ฉ๐ซ๐ข๐ฅ 11|8:30 ๐ฉ๐ฆ
๐๐จ๐ฎ๐ฌ๐ญ๐จ๐ง, ๐๐๐ฑ๐๐ฌ
๐๐ข๐๐ง๐ง๐ ๐ข๐ฌ 41 ๐ฐ๐๐๐ค๐ฌ
I woke up mad as usual because this boy will not come out of me.
I’m past-due and frustrated.
We called the mid-wife and she said if I don’t go into labor before Wednesday that we would go to the hospital and have a medically induced labor.
“Bae you okay” Kane asked me as I bounced on the ball.
“Yeah I’m cool”
“Sia I know you not pissin on yourself”
“What the fuck are you talking about”
I looked down and it was shit running down my leg.
“No I’m not pissin on myself..my water broke nigga”
“Oh shit this can’t be happening right now”
I haven’t did my edges or nothing and my nails aren’t done.
“Why”
“Because I look ugly…my baby can not come into this world thinking his mama is ugly”
“Bae really?”
“Yes really”
“Hold on one second I just need to go look presentable…the contractions haven’t even started yet”
My contractions been started before my water even broke but the midwife told me to wait until my water broke because they were probably just Braxton Hicks.
(Y’all I hope this make sense cuz I never been pregnant before or nothing and I google most of this shit)
“Okay go ahead just Lemme know when you’re in pain”
I went upstairs and into our room.
I sat down at my vanity and started doin my edges or something trying to make myself look presentable.
I’m starting to feel something.
I put try slides on and got ready to go downstairs.
“Everything in the car” I asked sitting back down on the ball.
“Yeah”
I bounced up and down on the ball for a couple more minutes until my contractions started getting closer together.
“Ouu shit” I mumbled.
“Kane can you start timing them”
He went to the stopwatch on his phone and we timed them.
I called my midwife.
“Hello” she answered.
“Shauna my contractions are like 7 minutes apart and this shit hurt so what do I do”
“You can make your way to the hospital now”
“Alright” I said and and hung up.
“Ouu my son is coming today or tomorrow” Kane cheered jumping up and down.
“Okay but the one about to give birth to your son can barely get up so nigga help me”
“Oh my bad Bae”
He helped me up and we went to the car with the car seat in it which is the Maserati truck.
We made our way to the hospital and we got a room shortly after.
I already changed into the gown shit and they did my IV.
“Heyy” The nurse cheesed.
Oh my gawd bruh..why in the hell is she smiling? Bitch I am in excruciating pain and you smiling?
Lemme stop..ima let her be happy.
“Hey”
“How you doing..you feeling okay”
“I feel like I’m being stabbed in my stomach so no I don’t feel good” I mugged her.
That was so rude. I feel bad.
“I’m sorry this shit just hurt”
“I know Mom but there is something I needed to ask you”
“Okay and that is”
“We’re you planning on getting an epidural”
Bitch what type of question is that?
“Yea”
“Well Umm you can’t”
“Excuse me”
“Well you can but we don’t recommend it AT ALL”
“And why not”
“Because since you’re past due like a lot of women..your pregnancy is already risky as it is so adding a extra risk to that is indeed Risky”
Bitch said risky so many times for what?
“So because I’m overdue..it too risky to get an epidural”
“Yes”
“So I have to push this big ass baby out without an epidural is what you’re telling me”
I’m just tryna make sure I got all this shit right.
“Yes”
“However there are meds in your IV that may help a little”
“Bitch these baby ass meds ain’t gon do shit”
Oh hell I just called this lady a bitch.
I gotta work on my mouth.
“I mean Nurse Howard”
“I’m sorry there’s nothing else we can do” She said walking out the room.
“Oh my fucking gosh bruh damn” I threw a tantrum.
“Bae you gon be good I promise”
“Kane why you do this to me…what I did to you”
“Nothing I just wanted a baby so I did what I had to do”
“Bestie I have arrived” Brax announced as he walked through the door with a teddy bear.
“Aww best Thank you”
“You’re welcome”
“Wassup bruh” He dapped Kane up.
“They gave you the epidural yet?” He asked me.
“They said I can’t get it cuz it’s too risky”
“Damn so you gotta push the thing out with no meds”
“I got these meds in the IV but we both know that ain’t gon do shit”
5 hours later…
๐๐ฉ๐ซ๐ข๐ฅ 12|2:45 ๐๐ฆ
I have been in labor for I don’t even know how long.
But I wasn’t here alone so that helps.
My dad, Dre, Tee, and Nick came to see me but they left while Brax and Tee stayed.
(COVID don’t exist in this book which is why they were allowed in the room)
Tee and Kane were on opposite sides of me and Brax was on the couch.
“Okayy I’m here to see how much you’re dilated”
“Okay”
She checked.
“Ok you’re 8 centimeters so not too much longer”
She walked out the room.
“Bae you okay” Kane asked sleepily.
He’d wake up to check on me.
“Yeah I’m cool”
No the fuck I’m not.
“I know you not but okay”
Okay why you ask then?
2 hours later…
๐๐ฉ๐ซ๐ข๐ฅ 12|4:50 ๐๐ฆ
“Okay you should be fully dilated by now”
She check and she smiled.
“Okay you’re 10 centimeters so it’s time to push”
“Can you two step out the room” she said referring to Tee and Brax.
Ouu shit I’m so scared.
“Bitch you got this for real…you ain’t no weak hoe okay” Tee said before walking out the room.
They both left and it was just the Delivery Doctor and a couple nurses and Kane.
“Babe please calm down…I feel like I hear your heart beating”
“Okay okay”
“Okay mom on this next contraction I want you to push”
“Okay”
“Calm down I know you’re scared and that’s okay but I need you to calm down”
“How the fuck can you tell me to calm down Bitch you ai-Bae don’t cuss the woman out” Kane cut me off.
“Okay”
Before I knew it the next contraction came and it was time for me to push.
Just know I screamed the work fuck so loud and I think I broke Kane’s hand.
“I know it hurts but don’t curse that loud”
“SHUT THE FUCK UP” I yelled at her.
I meant to do it that time.
Ugly hoe telling me to calm down when I’m the one getting my coochie ripped because Kane wanted to put a kid in me and my stupid ass let him.
“Okay 1..2..3..Push”
I did it again.
“I see his head so just one more push and he’s out”
“I can’t…I can’t”
“Yes you can Bae just one more”
“Okay”
It came again and this time cried filled the room.
I did it.
Never again.
They held him up.
“Dad do you wanna cut the umbilical cord” The doctor asked and Kane nodded.
He cut it and they wiped him off before they placed him on my chest.
Oh my goodness…he so white.
Oh my bad Kai…imma hop up off you.
They stitched me up and cleaned all the stuff and left the room.
Shortly after Tee and Brax can back in the room.
“Oh my goshhh my godson is here” Brax whisper-yelled.
“Ouu he white”
Best that’s what I said.
“Hop off my baby”
“What he is white as fuck”
We laughed and they went home shortly after.
Kai was sleep and it was time for me and Kane to go to sleep.
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