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“You wanted a dare, big boy.”
einstein’s skittles | ella
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“Sooo… what now?” Jake asked looking up at me, from where he was sitting on the ground.
Why is he sitting on the ground you ask? Well, I’d be stuffed if I knew. I mean there’s a perfectly fine chair in the corner. I have told him this repeatedly, but ‘it’s too far, I’d have to yell at you so you could hear me, and I’d wake up the whole ward’ was his only reply.
Suit yourself, Jake. Sit on the infected hospital floor where hundreds have probably vomited or shit themselves.
You do you.
“I don’t know, to be honest. I usually just sleep the time away…” I reply to Jake again. He’s only asked me the same question 5 times. You would think someone like him would have at least one creative, slightly entertaining idea.
But no.
So here I am, sitting in a hospital bed after my little relapse at the carnival, and the doctors have asked I stay for another three days for observation. I mean, I’m used to it, but this time around, Jake is here. And I hate to admit it, but sleeping is just not possible right now.
“We could play truth or dare again?” Jake say’s looking up at me.
“WOW, original Jake…” I drone.
“Well, I don’t hear you giving any bright suggestions Einstein!”
“Fine. I’ll play your lame game.”
“Good. Now I’ll go first.”
“Truth or dare, Jake?” I said bored already.
“Dare.” He said instantly.
Ohhh He was looking for a challenge huh?
“I, Ella Lucoe, dare you, Jake Eves, to steal something from the vending machine.”
“Seriously?” He said turning around to face me.
“Seriously. You wanted a dare big boy. Now you’ve got one. Oh, and try to get me some skittles while you’re there.”
“Fine.” He huffed walking out of the room.
I smirked lying back on the pillows behind me.
This was going to be interesting.
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“Y-You set off an alarm?” I breathed out, struggling to speak through my fits of laughter.
“It’s not funny.” A putting Jake grumbled, “I nearly got kicked out, then you would have been stuck in here all alone. Gods could you imagine being here for three days without me!” He huffed, hand over his heart.
“I wouldn’t be able to manage Jake, it would break me,” I said seriously, before cracking back into laughter.
“Fine.” He huffed again sitting down to his previous spot. “It’s your turn… Truth or dare?”
“Truth,” I replied. It’s not like I can really leave the bed.
“Boooorrrriiinnnnngggg…” He mumbled.
“Hey, it’s not my fault I can’t get out of bed without triggering a thousand things!”
“Well… how about this, how long has it been since you got your hair buzzed?”
“Round about 1 month after I was diagnosed, and my hair starting falling out. Rather than waiting I just took it all off in one sweep and donated it.”
“Ahhhh an angel to the end huh?”
“Pretty much,” I smirked. The day continued like this for hours, we would ask each other questions and answer them. But as we went on, I couldn’t not ask, it was still constantly on my mind, so I did it. I asked.
“Jake?”
“Yeah?” He asked, from his tone I could almost sense that he knew what was coming.
“Why did you kiss me and then push me away?” I asked softly.
“Damn it.” I heard him whisper.
“I-is it me?” I say softly, “I-I just need to know Jake. No hard feelings…” I trailed off.
“No Ella. Gods, it’s not you. It’s me, I just, you deserve so much more than a sick piece of work like me.”
“Technically I’m the sick one,” I said back, a weight lifted off my chest, but a mystery now swirling in my mind.
“Ella. I mean it. You do, you did deserve more than that, you deserve someone who is falling apart every second. What I did was wrong. Not because of you, but because of me, and how I did it. But Gods help me, I don’t regret it, Ella. And I know I’m stupid and selfish for that, but I don’t-“
“Jake,” I say interrupting him, and he looks up at me, I could see the storm brewing under the surface of his eyes. “I don’t regret it either. I-I like you Jake, and if anyone’s being selfish it’s me. Hell. I’m probably not even going to be here this time next month-“
“Ella, no.” He starts before I cut him off again.
“It’s true Jake. It’s getting worse and we all know it. But I just can’t not tell you, because I don’t want to regret it. I don’t want to miss my only chance.”
“Your only chance to what?”
“To love Jake. I-I think I love you… Arrrhh! Sorry. Forget, forget I said that, I’m just being stupid I’m sorry.” I go off hiding my face, only to look up when I hear Jake scuff his feet on the floor.
I watch as he kneels down in front of me. Heart beating in my chest, waiting for the rejection.
“Ella?” He say’s looking at me, something strange and new swirling in the depths of his eyes. “I-I think I love you too.” He say’s, and tears run down my face. Happiness overcoming me. I smile as Jake ruffles around in his pocket before pulling out something red.
“Do you want to be my girlfriend Ella?” He asks nervously while holding the red thing before me.
Skittles.
I laugh, overcome with Joy.
“Yes Jake, I’ll be your girlfriend.”
He fell to the floor hand over his chest.
“Oh thank God! I thought I was going to have a heart attack if you waited any longer to answer me.” I huffed out, and I laughed again before opening the bag towards him.
“Want some. BOYFRIEND?” I grin, as he reaches out for the packet, a smile lighting up his face.
Maybe. Maybe despite everything.
Things will be okay.
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HAHHAHA Remember what I said last time.
Well, that didn’t happen.
Sorry, I’m so unreliable, I really am.
The truth is, I spent the past two weeks constantly fighting with my mind, as to whether to keep writing this and all my other ideas. See, tomorrow I turn 16. And for me I have less than two years till I’m done school and out there fighting, and I have no idea what I want to do. I kept asking myself. Is it worth it? Or should I put all my effort into school and not be distracted. And I’m probably going to think that about lot’s of things. Is it worth it? But I decided to keep going, to keep working at it and to do what feels right and what I enjoy. And I’ll see where that leads me. At the same time I am also going through alot of things physical health wise, so just bear with me. I’ll get there.
So yeah, that’s a bit serious but I thought I would just let you all know.
I’m having a mid teen’s life crisis.
Now I hope you enjoyed this chapter. I certainly did.
I LOVVVEEEE Skittles.
Q: What Country do you live in, and do you have pets?
A: I live in Queensland Australia. It’s called the sunshine state, and it’s very country and beachy mixed with some desert and rainforest. We get all the extremes. For pet’s I currently have two dogs. I have a girl called lexie who we got from a rescue center and she’s a cross beagle something, we don’t really know, she’s more my mum’s. And then my baby, which I raised is called Mika, and she’s a red panda looking Siberian Husky and I love her so muccccchhhh.
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