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“Is he hot?”
I stare at Lex. Lex stares at me.
“What are you talking about?” I had just finalized telling Lex about the project I have to work on for the office and she’s offering no support.
“C’mon Wren, it’s okay to have a little crush, everyone does.” But not me.
“If you are implying that I might have a crush on my boss, Mr. Martin, then you’re wrong. Dead wrong Lex.” I down my soda and force myself to live with the sting of the bubbles traveling down my throat.
“Oh my God! No. Not him! Your colleague,” She wiggles her eyebrows in a suggestive way. “you’ve mentioned him once or twice before but you never describe him.” Her eyes are wide as she sits crisscross on my couch, then rests her elbows on her knees; leaning in and narrowing her eyes. “So describe.”
I roll my eyes. I’m not wasting my breath describing a condescending idiot.
When I get up to refill my drink, Lex grabs my wrist and all but bodyslams me back onto the couch. I huff, realizing I have no choice but to tell her.
Lex isn’t the easiest person to ignore. For one, she’s effortlessly beautiful. Her mother and father were models in the nineties-and usually attractive people make ugly kids-but not Lex’s parents. She’s nicely stubborn, like she’s not mean but she’s scary if she doesn’t get her way. Lex turned out amazing. Inside and out.
I still remember the first time we’d met.
“Why do you look like you’ve just attended a funeral.” A girl with blonde curly hair asked, her big eyes taking in my outfit.
A random sweater vest and the same pants i’ve been wearing all week. Some people think that i look like a nerd, but i don’t think so.
“Why do you look like a unicorn just shit on you.” I got in trouble with the teacher yesterday for using ‘bad words’, but i don’t give a shit.
“Touchรฉ.” Barbie says.
I don’t know her name but she looks like a Barbie doll, just younger. We’re in kindergarten.
“I’m Alex Anderson.” She doesn’t look like an Alex. There’s a boy in my class with that name and he’s mean.
“I’ll call you Lex.”
Lex thinks about it before nodding. “What can i call you?”
“Wren.”
And we’ve been best friends ever since. Barbie and Dracula. Yes, she forced me to dress up like that for Halloween that year. Yes, i did it.
“So?” Lex eagerly taps her chin.
I sigh. “His name is Rhys Moore-“
“Dreamy.” She smiles at my scowl.
“He’s tall. But like in a freaky way, six-two, three maybe?” I can’t believe i’m talking this man up. “Dark messy hair, grey eyes? But possible just pale blue-“
“Yum.”
“Lex-stop.”
“Sorry. Keep going. I’m intrigued.”
I take a long inhale of breath, repeating, don’t blow up on Lex, don’t blow up on Lex, don’t blow up on Lex. “He wears a couple rings, though none on his ring finger, and his knuckles were busted up a few days ago.”
I remember him crossing his arms in Fernando’s office and seeing the cracked and raw skin.
“Snap a picture if you can.” Lex nibbles on her lip. I ignore her.
“Wears button-ups, rarely ever a tux. Never seen him wear a tie regularly, just for events.” Why am i still going on about him?
“Anything else? Like does he have abs, what size bulge does-”
“I’m not in bed with the man.” I clarify.
“No…but you can usually tell in dress pants, just asking. Want to make sure my best friend is always satisfied.” Lex takes a sip of her drink then looks at her phone.
“Shit. I’m late.” Her soda spills from the corner of her mouth as she hurriedly gets off the couch. I follow, but without the stumbling.
“For what?”
Her eyes go wide and then she smiles, wonky. “Uh. Family game night. Y’know.” She puts on her fluffy jean jacket and slides on her converse.
“Oh. Can i come?”
“No!” I stare at her. She clears her throat. “I mean no. I’m sorry Wren, but I haven’t seen them in a while and it’s not like you’re not family it’s just…”
“It’s fine. I get it.” I don’t. “I have to catch up on some work stuff anyways.”
“Okay. Love you.” She blows me a kiss and then she’s out the door.
She’s totally going on a date.
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A half an hour later, i’m sitting in my bed, leaning on the headboard and revising a rough draft template I put together quickly. Puff snuggles into my side, her purr vibrates against my hip.
I click over to another tab on my laptop and pull up my email. I go through the old ones when a new one pops up in my inbox. I hover over it before clicking on it.
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๐๐๐๐: ๐ณ๐ฎ๐ฐ๐ฐ๐ณ๐ฆ@๐ฆ๐ฎ๐ข๐ช๐ญ.๐ค๐ฐ๐ฎ
๐๐๐๐๐๐๐: ๐๐ฐ๐ฏ๐ต๐ณ๐ข๐ค๐ต ๐๐ณ๐ฐ๐ซ๐ฆ๐ค๐ต
๐๐ฆ๐ข๐ณ ๐๐ช๐ด๐ด ๐๐ข๐ฎ๐ฆ๐ด,
๐‘๐ท๐ฆ ๐ณ๐ฆ๐ข๐ฅ ๐ต๐ฉ๐ณ๐ฐ๐ถ๐จ๐ฉ ๐ข๐ญ๐ญ ๐ต๐ฉ๐ฆ ๐ฑ๐ข๐ฑ๐ฆ๐ณ๐ด ๐๐ข๐น๐ช๐ฏ๐ฆ ๐จ๐ข๐ท๐ฆ ๐ต๐ฐ ๐ถ๐ด, ๐ช ๐ฆ๐น๐ฑ๐ฆ๐ค๐ต ๐บ๐ฐ๐ถ ๐ฅ๐ช๐ฅ ๐ข๐ด ๐ธ๐ฆ๐ญ๐ญ, ๐ข๐ฏ๐ฅ ๐ช‘๐ท๐ฆ ๐ฏ๐ฐ๐ต๐ช๐ค๐ฆ๐ฅ ๐ข ๐ค๐ฐ๐ฎ๐ฎ๐ฐ๐ฏ ๐ฑ๐ข๐ต๐ต๐ฆ๐ณ๐ฏ ๐ช๐ฏ ๐ต๐ฉ๐ฆ ๐ฃ๐ถ๐ด๐ช๐ฏ๐ฆ๐ด๐ด๐ฆ๐ด ๐ต๐ฉ๐ฆ ๐ค๐ฐ๐ฎ๐ฑ๐ข๐ฏ๐บ ๐ฉ๐ข๐ด ๐ถ๐ฏ๐ฅ๐ฆ๐ณ ๐ต๐ฉ๐ฆ๐ช๐ณ ๐ฏ๐ข๐ฎ๐ฆ. ๐๐ฉ๐ฆ ๐ฃ๐ถ๐ด๐ช๐ฏ๐ฆ๐ด๐ด๐ฆ๐ด ๐ข๐ณ๐ฆ ๐ญ๐ช๐ฏ๐ฌ๐ฆ๐ฅ ๐ต๐ฐ๐จ๐ฆ๐ต๐ฉ๐ฆ๐ณ ๐ด๐ฐ๐ฎ๐ฆ๐ฉ๐ฐ๐ธ, ๐ญ๐ช๐ฌ๐ฆ ๐ต๐ฉ๐ฆ๐ณ๐ฆ‘๐ด ๐ข๐ฏ๐ฐ๐ต๐ฉ๐ฆ๐ณ ๐ง๐ข๐ค๐ต๐ฐ๐ณ ๐ต๐ณ๐บ๐ช๐ฏ๐จ ๐ต๐ฐ ๐ต๐ช๐ฆ ๐ต๐ฉ๐ฆ๐ฎ ๐ข๐ญ๐ญ ๐ต๐ฐ๐จ๐ฆ๐ต๐ฉ๐ฆ๐ณ. ๐๐ฐ๐ต ๐ด๐ถ๐ณ๐ฆ ๐ฆ๐น๐ข๐ค๐ต๐ญ๐บ ๐ธ๐ฉ๐ข๐ต.
๐๐ฆ๐ต ๐ฃ๐ข๐ค๐ฌ ๐ต๐ฐ ๐ฎ๐ฆ ๐ธ๐ฉ๐ฆ๐ฏ ๐บ๐ฐ๐ถ ๐ค๐ข๐ฏ.
๐๐ฉ๐บ๐ด ๐๐ฐ๐ฐ๐ด๐ฆ
Moose.
Rhys Moose.
Something bubbles up in my chest and I let out a small fraction of a laugh. My body shakes a little and Puff looks up at me. I let the laugh simmer down as I pat her tiny head.
Then the realization hits me.
I haven’t laughed in over five years. And I had just laughed at something Rhys Moore had done. Any and all traces of that laugh is banished from my throat.
Even Lex, my best friend who is the funniest person I know, can’t make me laugh. Well, she did five years ago. But not since.
I try to make myself feel better. I just think I laughed because he’s so…serious, like myself, and i’ve never seen him do anything wrong. Ever.
Once I feel better-or y’know, normal-I exit the email and hover over the other tab.
Then I decide to toy with him.
๐๐: ๐ณ๐ฎ๐ฐ๐ฐ๐ณ๐ฆ@๐ฆ๐ฎ๐ข๐ช๐ญ.๐ค๐ฐ๐ฎ
๐๐๐๐: ๐ธ๐ซ๐ข๐ฎ๐ฆ๐ด@๐ฆ๐ฎ๐ข๐ช๐ญ.๐ค๐ฐ๐ฎ
๐๐๐๐๐๐๐: ๐๐ฐ๐ฏ๐ต๐ณ๐ข๐ค๐ต ๐๐ณ๐ฐ๐ซ๐ฆ๐ค๐ต
๐๐ฆ๐ข๐ณ ๐๐ฐ๐ฐ๐ด๐ฆ,
๐ ๐ฆ๐ด, ๐ช’๐ท๐ฆ ๐ฏ๐ฐ๐ต๐ช๐ค๐ฆ๐ฅ ๐ต๐ฉ๐ข๐ต ๐ข๐ด ๐ธ๐ฆ๐ญ๐ญ, ๐ด๐ฆ๐ฆ๐ฎ๐ด ๐ญ๐ช๐ฌ๐ฆ ๐ด๐ฐ๐ฎ๐ฆ๐ฐ๐ฏ๐ฆ ๐ช๐ด ๐ต๐ณ๐บ๐ช๐ฏ๐จ ๐ต๐ฐ ๐ต๐ช๐ฆ ๐ช๐ฏ ๐ข๐ญ๐ญ ๐ฐ๐ง ๐ฐ๐ถ๐ณ ๐ฃ๐ถ๐ด๐ช๐ฏ๐ฆ๐ด๐ด ๐ต๐ฐ ๐ค๐ฐ๐ฎ๐ฎ๐ถ๐ฏ๐ช๐ต๐บ ๐ข๐จ๐ณ๐ฆ๐ฆ๐ฎ๐ฆ๐ฏ๐ต๐ด. ๐๐ถ๐ต ๐ฏ๐ฐ๐ต ๐ต๐ฐ ๐ธ๐ฐ๐ณ๐ณ๐บ, ๐ต๐ฉ๐ฆ ๐ค๐ฐ๐ฏ๐ต๐ณ๐ข๐ค๐ต ๐ค๐ฐ๐ท๐ฆ๐ณ๐ด ๐ข๐ฏ๐บ ๐ข๐ฏ๐ฅ ๐ข๐ญ๐ญ ๐ด๐ฆ๐ค๐ฐ๐ฏ๐ฅ ๐ฑ๐ข๐ณ๐ต๐บ ๐ณ๐ฆ๐ด๐ต๐ณ๐ช๐ค๐ต๐ช๐ฐ๐ฏ๐ด.
๐๐ณ๐ฆ๐ฏ ๐๐ข๐ฎ๐ฆ๐ด
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